life is the sweetest gift.

As i find myself walking down the the street plowing my feet threw the fresh driven snow i look up and quickly glance at a couple of russian soldiers. Out of instinct i yell out "we're russian..do not shoot!" i hear a loud boom and then a soft but irritating ring following right after it. Every thing felt if it was in slow motion, as the ringing stopped and i finally made up of what was going on, i thought to myself getting shot is not so bad. Suddenly as i see the blood hit the immaculate white snow the pain started kicking in. I look into Lev's eyes hopelessly and all he says to me is, "sit down". i do what i was told. The last thing i can remember after that was sitting in a car next to Lev. I could of sworn i almost seen him cry and after that i started feeling peace within myself and than it hit me. I knew i was dieing because i felt like sleeping every time i closed my eyes, after a while my conscious stopped telling me to wake myself up and i fell into a calm deep sleep and never awoke.

something i like to do on my free time :D

Ever since i was just a little boy i have always thought of cool knew ways and ideas to keep and remain warm. Back before the war i use to snuggle up in blankets and get snug in my grandmas oversized cotton robe, but ever since she died and heat became so scarce myself and Lev thought of a new and improved way to stay warm and get a nice colorful tan while doing it. We first came up with the brilliant idea when we constructed our first makeshift campfire. And i've been and addict to it ever since. It also is a blast and you do not need much experience to properly enjoy yourself. The only thing i recommend is to take a long enough breathe and a partner to spot you if anything goes terribly wrong. Thank god Lev is a great partner and spotter, without him i would of died months ago  I can honestly say it is the best and most efficient stress reliever in my opinion if you are a true hardcore russian.

on a mission.

It seem almost impossible makes me feel utterly hopeless. finding eggs were u can not even find a glass of milk nor eat at the least one skimpy meal a day can be compared up against finding a needle in a large hay stack. The thing that sucks the most is the snow, it makes a minute feel like three, and an hour feels like a whole afternoon. I often trick myself in thinking i been been trying to find these eggs for days now and its only been a few miserable hours. After freezing my butt off in the snow we finally find a house the looks like it might have eggs. After trying to get the locked door open we manage to get in and we find a complete horrific discovery. We all look down and see a old man laying dead next to his frantic son grasping onto the only chicken. We end up making a deal with the boy trading him the rooster for a bunch of bootleg candy that we made out of nothing from the library days ago. After this moment i feel all the stress roll of my shoulders, we finally completed exhausting the mission and now we head back. We're gonna eat good tonight!

life is not so great at the moment.

life doesn't feel like it cant get any worse ,right about now. I don't remember the last time i felt a inch bit of warmth on my body and this weather is slowly killing me off. Everywhere i look is death, destruction ,snow and did i mention more snow. To make matters worth i'm stuck her with Lev, he's most definitely the slowest jew i've ever met its ridiculous, he's such a lagger. But i don't mind the company what so ever, i much rather be with him rather than being stuck on my own. But to make matters a lot worse i'm pretty sure we are lost.The worse thing i've seen all day were those suffering dogs. Its horrible to see a living creature in so much pain and misery that they cant even end they're own life. I think i did what was right by finishing them off with my knife. At the least Lev got us a place to sleep  for the night with a bunch of germans which isn't the smartest idea of all time and they're adolescent sex slaves. Hope i can get some sleep without being awoke by a bunch of loud horny nazis and they're premature sex slaves.